How Do I Stop Grieving My Child’s Death?
You have mentioned you lost a child. I am a 42 year old wife of four years. My now husband lost his daughter in a car accident two years before we met. She was seventeen and I never knew her. He never wants to talk about it but yet the house is full of pictures of her and her room is exactly the way she left it with folded clothes on the bed.
If I bring anything up I feel like I’m trespassing into his life. I have been supportive at graveside visits and have made Christmas Wreaths and have went out of my way to be compassionate. I feel that if he moves on with his life by cleaning out the room he feels like he didn’t or doesn’t love her. I don’t know if he has any unresolved guilt or regrets.
He holds on so tight to her that it paralyzes him in so many ways. As his wife should I step in and clean out the room. To help him the way he is not able to help himself. Or should I just leave it alone and hope eventually it will work itself out?? It has been six years now since her death. Not really sure how to help him.
Thank You! Terry
While your husband is acting a little strangely, six years is not a long time to still be dealing with all the emotional hurt and pain. In his case I would recommend not too be in too big of a hurry. Thirty-seven after we lost Jessie I still occasionally see Jessie’s picture and think of what she would be like as a young woman and the thoughts bring tears to my eyes.
After Jessie died, my wife Julie did not look at her picture or mention her until 17 years later. One day she just “broke” and out came so much hurt and pain. She wept for over an hour and a half. Seventeen years is a long time to bury such suffering.
The best thing you can do is try to comfort him. Jesus says that those who hurt need comfort (Matthew 5).
Tell him how sorry you are. Tell him that you feel deeply the hurt and pain he is enduring. These are words of comfort.
There are six major stages that your husband will need to work through in order to be fully healed.
The stages are:
These stages often occur in this order but they don’t have to. In fact, they seldom do. We usually are working on one or more simultaneously.
It sounds as if your husband is still in the shock and denial stage. He may be enduring depression as suggested by his behavior. You might ask him about the possibility of depression and get him to take a simple depression test (on line–takes about 3 minutes and instantly scored.)
Many people work through all of the stages and get healed as they pick up the pieces of their lives and move on. Some, unfortunately, never get to step six and thus short circuit the healing process.
My advice is to give him room and time to work through these stages. You might even mention them to him and help him to self diagnose which stage or stages he is in.
You are probably right in some of your wonderings. He may have many regrets. He may struggle with his love for her. Maybe her death had something to do with a divorce. These issues will probably need some personal counseling. Pray that the day will come when he may be willing to deal with these issues in a positive way.
I am sorry for his pain–and yours. I will pray that soon he will be emotionally restored and on the way toward many great days ahead.
Let me know how well you and he are getting along.